Tuesday, November 4, 2008
In Luke Chapter two, it mentions where Mary, Jesus' mother put things in her heart to remember. In Luke 2:19, the shepherds had come to see baby Jesus and when they left it is said, "But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart."
Well, I don't know about you, but when my first little one arrived, I didn't have much time for pondering. I was up to my eyeballs in diapers and umbilical cords and stuff. Your first child is such a mystery and you are down to the bone scared. You don't know what to do with this little creature and are pretty sure you will screw this project up.
Is it normal to cry that much? And why doesn't that nasty dried umbilical cord just fall the heck off? And if you have a boy and you chose to have him circumcised, yikes. The first time I opened up that diaper, I started crying. It looked horrible and really, really sore. Tyler is looking up at me with those wise eyes of a two day old as if to say, "Why?"
Have you ever looked into the eyes of newborn? They are very wise. It's as if they just left God in heaven and wondering what this world has to offer. Amazing.
So you have your baby and half a day later, they send you home. You are drowning and your mother wants to know what the problem is. Just remember, until the 1950's, a new mother was wearing a nice bed jacket, recovering from her ordeal and had nurses taking care of her newborn. They also got about two weeks in the hospital. We do not have that luxury and I say we need it. Or at the very least, a day at the spa for heaven's sake. I digress.
You are at home with the little package and........Oh my Gosh, he is hiccupping, call the pediatrician, now.
Oh my gosh, why is he doing that?
Oh my gosh, he nurses for 45 minutes every two hours, 12:00, 2:00, 4:00, etc.
Speaking of that, what the heck happened to the chest area?? Chest of a lifetime, and the bloated tummy to go with it.
Oh my gosh, is it supposed to come out like that? Why is it green? (Poop, not breast milk)
Oh my gosh, look at that face, he looks mad. (the baby, not your husband)
Oh my gosh, can I handle this?
Oh my gosh, oh my gosh, oh my gosh..........
Deep breaths honey, you are gonna make it. I always tell my new mom friends, it takes about a month. About a month so the baby is not looking at you like, "Who the heck are you? Why all the light and stuff, and I liked swimming around in the dark?" About a month where you are not looking at your baby as if to say, "Where in the world did you come from and why can't you just sleep for Pete's sake. In about four weeks time you will get into a routine that works for the both of you.
Baby happy, you tired as all get out, but mostly happy.
Keep going, you will make. God bless.